Got to sleep until 8:45AM today. Latest I think I've slept in 10 years. Granted I had some help from the time change and a little pill. Woke up feel refreshed, excited, scared, and generally just kind of smug about the reality of what we are doing here.
We went on a walk this morning, taking in the air, and stares of the capital city. We stopped by a supermarket and picked up a large amount of bottled water and some diapers for the frenzy that will hit this afternoon.
At 2PM we are scheduled to return to the orphanage and following a coffee ceremony, emerge with Hambisa from the large steel gates. Sure he lives behind razor wire and steel gates, but Hambisa is a very safe young man. He has had the pleasure of having kind and protective caregivers feed him and keep him healthy. Though we come with the best of intentions, this transition will be scary for him. He will emerge into an unknown world, with unknown people who don't look or smell like him. He will be scared and for that...we are a bit anxious.
I love this country, but it's very different this time. I just want to be home with all our babies. This trip isn't about getting to know our surroundings, the culture, the life. It's about us getting to know each other.
I can hardly wait just to hold him close. We talked this morning about how it would be less anxiety inducing to be watching someone's child for two days in a hotel that we knew nothing of their routine. Why is it scarier when he's ours? It's also funny to have a child that we cannot even begin to predict what it will be like. We know Macabe and Bennett's every waking move and can usually come pretty close to knowing what to expect for them. We can at least guess what things might be a real wild card for them.
It's all a part of the adventure right?! Here we go!!! Ahh!!??!!???!!!
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